alternative book fair - from 9 to 19 December 2009
in Porto city, Portugal
this is the perfect event, right now, and i wanted to go from the very first moment i saw this ad.
i got about 5 days left to visit the fair... but i'm not really sure if i'm gonna make it :-(
first of all, i can't go alone, that's totally out of question! i don't remember the last time i was out on the street, specially to attend an event. or like the last time i went to the mall all by myself. there were times when i could do that and be ok all alone, but in the last couple of years i don't feel ok about it, it makes me feel too anxious...
so you say i could go with a friend, right? ok, i've tried this one but i only have one friend in this whole frickin town that could/would like to go wiht me, but we haven't got our schedules straight yet :-(
and i can't even use the weather as an excuse, since it hasn't rained in the last couple of days.
anyway, i really wanted to go to this "indie" book fair but if i actually make it there, it's gonna be a bit sad because i'm gonna have to keep myself very self-contained on not spending (too) much. since i'm 'sort of' unemployed (again, after almost 2 years at a steady job) and i still don't know if i'm gonna have to pay back my ex-bosses for two-month's work for resigning instead of giving them the two weeks notice, i gotta keep my expenses short on "extras". and the gods* know how i get when i'm in place with lots of books and magazines, how hard it is for me not to touch them, pick some up and browse my fingers trough them... and not buying anything!
at least this event as been a bit useful for me to google up some of the organization's names and publishers, and i have come across some good news on the Portuguese zine (under)world. there IS actually some activity still going on! now i just have to find the courage to mail some of the people/orgs involved in this and ask them on the possibility of a zine workshop or some meetings or something to get like-minded people together...
i even thought about sending them an invitation to join the We Make Zines online community, but without a "proper" introduction of myself and/or my intentions towards them, i feel i'm kinda invading their space or even spamming them. and that would make for a terrible first impression, don't you think?
* note: i like to use the expression "the gods know" but it's totally in a manner of speaking, since i'm not catholic (although i was raised by catholic beliefs), or anything like that. i don't see myself as a religious person, actually i identify more with Atheism. i just like to make the "god" plural and say "gods" for fun.
if i were to look for a religion, i think i'd be more einclined into something Pagan, related to Nature and definitely Mother Earth would the goddess i would most likely choose to worship ;-)